One day, I was watching a documentary. The interviewer asked a question that really made me think: “If you were to write a letter to your “person” (also read job, dream, etc.) what would you say?”

Mine would probably go something like this:

Dear boo, 

That moment you smiled at me and introduced yourself to me at school instead of the girl you were supposed to meet, that moment changed my life and yours.

The moment you asked me to the youth Christmas banquet, I would do anything to talk to that girl and give her some insight of what was to come from that first date. 

The week we were able to hang out and get to know each other better, can I have that week back again? It was so fun just talking and walking around the ORU campus, attending the track meet, and watching you play your guitar.  

The first official date where you showed up an hour early, I would love to go back there and replay those moments and hear what you and my dad talked about so awkwardly in the living room. 

Oh, the first kiss. It was perfect. There is nothing I would change, except to have just one more moment with you for one more hug and kiss.

I remember the night we talked about you moving. I was crushed, because I was moving back home and we would be able to have more time together. But, I knew that the move was something you needed to do for your career.

The late night phone calls, the over-stretched cord attached to the wall phone in the kitchen, the low battery beeps from the handheld cordless phone, and all the long distance charges (I probably still owe a balance…sorry mom!) those helped me feel closer to you.

The trips to Florida to visit, going to the beach in Clearwater, going to Busch Gardens, and just enjoying the beautiful weather. Having you come back to Oklahoma, picking you up at the airport, and going to all our favorite places. I miss those moments of seeing you in person for the first time after we had been apart. Oh what a heavenly reunion it will be when I see you again.

I am sorry about that one night where we ate at a beautiful restaurant on a pier in Tampa. You asked me to walk with you on the beach after dinner, but I declined and asked if we could go see a movie. I did not realize that you had a beautiful plan to watch the sunset and ask me to marry you in the most romantic way. I would love to have that night as a do-over. I would not have changed the plan.

The best day, that one sunny September day where there were just a few clouds in the sky, a slight breeze and the perfect temperature for an outdoor wedding, that was the best day. The only thing I would change about that day would be that I would slow down, look around, and enjoy all the moments and the people that came to celebrate us that day. The whole day felt like a beautiful blur.

Remember when we went to Cancun? I’m sorry about the snorkeling incident. I would like a re-do of that day as well. Other than that, I loved that trip because I was with you!

The road trips and the trips where we took an airplane. Any trip we took held some of the best memories. You loved vacation and adventure. I played it safe. If we could do something over, I would take more of an adventure stance. Oh the places we would have gone!

I remember the day I told you I was pregnant. Life was complicated in those early weeks. We were uncertain about so many things, except that we were so blessed to be adding to our family. I loved sharing that secret with only you for a while. It was just ours. It was also just as fun to share with our family that there would be another person to love. Our parents and family were so excited!

The day that Abby arrived in our arms was long and chaotic, but those first moments with you and her are some that I will always hold precious!

Watching you become a father made me fall in love with you all over again. You connected with Abby. There was something special between the two of you and I loved watching it grow and change as she did. From diapers to proms and graduation you were there for it all.

That trip to Las Vegas for our 20th anniversary. Enough said, because what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. 

The day you told me you were proud of me for completing my masters degree, I want that day back too! I loved that moment, it meant the world to me that you recognized my hard work and were proud of me for finishing strong even through the worst that 2020 had thrown our way. 

May 26 – I would do anything to go back to that day. I would take more moments to hug you, talk with you, and just spend time with you before you were admitted to the hospital. I got busy preparing for our move that day and did not take as much time to sit and talk with you as I should have. Can I have that day back?

June 7. The day of the phone call. I had not heard your voice for a while. It sounded different because of the oxygen you had been on for a couple of weeks. You called to talk about something serious. The conversation did not last long. I think I remember saying I love you, but did I really?

I know you had amazing days along our journey together, but I find myself wondering which ones you would write to me about if things were different?

I want you to know that I love you. I have always loved you and will always love you. You are the reason I am who I am today. You challenged me, you encouraged me, and you loved me no matter what. I miss your daily encouragement, the way you challenged me and most of all your love. There is not a day that goes by where you aren’t a part of my thoughts. Happy Heavenly Valentine’s Day Boo.

This is just a snippet of what I would write, the rest I won’t share publicly. It is something that will always remain between Jason and I. 

Finally, I love the phrase “See you Soon” because it reminds me that as believers we have a hope of eternity together with our Heavenly Father. A hope of being reunited with those we have loved on this earth that have passed away. Friends, I want to challenge you to say all the words now, like today. Do not wait until later when you have to write it in a letter.